Sanity/Insanity

We hold on as long as we may.

Sanity/Insanity

In spite of everything,

or perhaps because of it,

I am happy to be here.

I have grown resilient

to falling through the cracks;

to taking the knocks life

has dished out in my direction.

Still it leaves me sad, even morose

from time to time,

moment to moment;

and I can turn on a sixpence.

One minute feeling buoyant,

full of hope, and the next sliding

into the abyss at the merest

whiff of insincerity.

A place where I will tear

the throat from monsters,

and tilt at the windmills

of perceived deceptions.

It is a brutal dark place to

inhabit and I would sooner

walk upon the surface

of the earth,

breathing the sweet air of

life, for I am happy to be here.

 

14/10/14

Author's Note

Reviews

[Terpsichore]

For better or worse we live our span and the fine line between so called sanity and insanity is perhaps more subjective than actual, but it is true that the mind is an incredibly powerful instrument that can call up those dark days from nowhere.

T

[John Alexander McFadyen]

I totally agree T. Thank you.

[Lydia Shutter]

No matter what life throws in our path, we fight.....because we know on some level there is no better place. There are disappointments in life....some of which are merely perceived. Even if they are real, the monsters can not steal the sunshine...not if we refuse to allow them. Unfortunately, there are those in life who will not be satisfied no matter what we do. Once we have accepted that, it is time to walk away from them....for self preservation. So much in this one, John. I liked it. Lydi**

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Thank you Lidi, I think our paths are close enough to understand

[Pryde Foltz]

the next sliding
into the abyss at the merest
whiff of insincerity.
A place where I will tear
the throat from monsters,
and tilt at the windmills
of perceived deceptions

An excellent write … here we have an example of the sneaky side of ego … it would have us take offence when the offence is really only to the one who perpetuated the act. We live in a limited world of sneaking chaos; no one person can ever live up to any other persons demands of ego … not possible … and so when one has seemingly failed you … think yourself the mountain and they the breeze. You will remaining standing long after they have blown themselves out … that comes from the Tao. Although I have done some paraphrasing.

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Thank you Pryde for such sage advice. I guess I was trying to convey the disappointment when you give all but are let down.

[Pryde Foltz]

Yeah … I understand that part all too well:)

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Sorry you are too one who recalls such inequity.

[Pryde Foltz]

Live is full of ironies … once the grief passes best to see them as a chance for new beginnings:)

[John Alexander McFadyen]

True but when it happens again and again......................

[Pryde Foltz]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qq9LeiGQqlo
Yes … again and again to me … and the last time just about killed me ... the short and the long … there is no lasting meaning and fulfilment to be found in romantic love … it is interplay between body chemistry and our thoughts … designed to reproduce the species not give happiness. That's not to say two enlightened beings cannot come together and be happy … but first they must find the lasting meaning within. It's a paradigm shift in the way romantic love is viewed … I know but … a shift once made that leads to less personal suffering.

[John Alexander McFadyen]

But Pryde I am not looking for the simple constriuct of romantic love as I do understand. I am a giver and my last two girlfriends were takers. One took me for £20,000 the other lied for two years and went back to a husband she does not love.

[Pryde Foltz]

Yeah … that is awful … they both were definitely in possession of some opaqueness as the Buddhas would say … and you are deserved of some freedom from thoughts of them … I would say. If you have not, look into Eckhart Tolle … he is a very wise man and he has helped me a lot in taking back control of my thoughts. I wish well … so if I have overstepped please forgive me.

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Overstepped no. Kindness is never overstepping Pryde. I am in certain control over most of myself apart from the wounded heart which will, as always, recover.

[Ruth]

Gives the reader strength...powerful write love...insightful and knowing, understanding and revealing xo

[John Alexander McFadyen]

I had hoped for such a reaction, Many thanks Poppy.

[Rene Salinas]

To live in darken places, here a little something from another something I read I thought it was fitting: Oh, wearisome condition of humanity, Born under one law, to another bound; Vainly begot, and yet forbidden vanity, Created sick, commanded to be sound. I started to realize I do enjoy roaming around darken places. Better the enemy you know they say. Sure about the sadness, maybe lonelyness as well but every so often when you get a glmpse of light it makes you want to continue. The sanity and insanity dillema well that's just it...

Thankyou

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Yes that has interesting tones to it. Thanks Rene

[jacob erin-cilberto]

face the monsters long enough, we get immune to the damage they can do...and we face them head on...just glad we are still here to fight...
that goes for emotions as well as physical...maybe moreso...

what knocks us down makes us stronger as long as we are resilent enough to get back up.

and sooner or later there is an invisible line between sanity and insanity...and it is hard to tell which side of the line we are on.

[John Alexander McFadyen]

True Jacob but when you don't know the differencve you are completly lost. Many thanks.