A Life Alone

The birds have flown the nest.

A Life Alone

And why would I choose such isolation?

The ending of decades as father, husband,

lover.

Someone dedicated to the task,

of nurturing, protecting,

being the hunter-gatherer.

But you all walked away;

empty days without purpose are now

what decorate my walls.

And in the cathedral like silence

I hear my heart’s screams echo

in the hollow darkness where I lie.

 

31/10/14

Author's Note

Reviews

[The Black Warrior]

This poem contains a lot of emotions. Very vulnerable...

Thank you for sharing!

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Yes in parts Suk. Many thanks!

[The Black Warrior]

You are very welcome!

[willweb]

Such a sad but real piece John. This empitness can be devastating, bringing on a feeling of hopelessness, but each corner of life presents us with new and different sights and challenges. Keep looking forward.

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Thank you willweb. I am learning new things and trying to fill the void.

[Ruth]

Oh, this is saddening, I felt the heaviness...each stage of life gives us pause and when we feel alone as such, it is even harder to negotiate around the emotions, powerful John x

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Thank you Poppy It feels quite bad but then I remind myself there are people a lot worse off. My neighbour recently lost his wife to cancer.

[Thomas Fitzgerald]

Incredibly sad emotionaly one to ponder.

[John Alexander McFadyen]

I am glad it came over so Thomas and thank you for being so indulgent.

[Lyn Anderson]

This is brutally sad and lonely. A heartfelt piece of lonliness and suffering.

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Yes. Thanks you get it!.

[Jamestry]

What a way to go. Deep meanings, some happenings in life live people in hollow darkness. But God knows best

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Thank you for your review James. In God you trust but me I trust no one.

[jacob erin-cilberto]

such a sad piece of writing----to lose a spouse is one thing, but an entire family?

that just spells lonely with all caps.

saw heart many years ago...many.
amazing voices.

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Well they both chose on going to university to go live with their mother in London. A stab in the back as she left them with me when she went off with a public schoolboy when they were 4 and 6 years of age. Thanks Jacob.