Searching

The mystery eludes me.

Searching

The sum total of my divinity

resides within insanity.

The place to which I flee

and where I can be

myself.

A tragic drowning pool

where only sadness rules

and I am but a knave

with no control of waves.

There I sink in excrement,

suck upon a Polo Mint

to dull the taste

of such toxic waste.

Yet it is a safe place

where only I can pace

myself.

So no rescue required

for I have retired

from a world where fate

has left me only hate.

And there is the rub

the actual nub of the matter

as I seek my own soul.

 

13/06/15

Author's Note

Reviews

[R Smith]

the depths we go through on the road to enlightenment, its a deep dark path i did a bit of it, quite a bit, in fact a bloody lot! A road of insanity here John and a deep dark terrific poem :)

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Tis a journey that unfortunately many of us take Richard and I am hoping you are on a better plane now. Thank you.

[AaronFreitas]

"The sum total of my divinity
resides within insanity."

I love those words my friend. Great way to start the write and the rest completely fed off that opening. Good work:)

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Thank you so much Aaron for so many positive reviews.

[wordman]

there is a place where no one else can go,deep within my soul

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Yes and sometimes it is a refuge and at others the darkest hole of hell. Thanks WM

[fattycbreezy52]

Wow I think I have lost myself somewhere.Yet,i know clearly the place where i have been residing all these years.Insanity takes a toll on me.Yet,i am very much sane when i know how fate has ruined my life.
Umm........this is a hard-hitting writeup,Makes us question about our own existence.It's indeed,mysterious.
Good job:)

[John Alexander McFadyen]

I think we writers have a large measure of introspection in-built. Many thanks FCB.

[Willard Wells]

Beautiful writing. I find myself searching for myself most all the time. Analyzing and re-examining my life. Of course much of the searching is now done based on the question of how did I survive this long. Great work with great imagery. thanks

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Thank you Willard, we will someday stop asking.

[ANTO]

John! Thankfully I didnt read this on an empty stomach with that image of eating mints to try to combat the taste of the waste - strong, putrid and appropriate for a write of this dark magnitude.
If we are passionate on one swing of the pendulum we cannot hope to avoid the same intensity on the other swing.
Good emote.

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Sorry to put you off your porridge Anto! Many thanks. '

[andrew mitchell]

a fantastic write john ..............

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Thank you Andrew. I try to avoid rhyming if at all possible because I suck at it lol!