Confession's Death

Read and decide.

How often I have woken with regret

not knowing how I fell from grace.

Lost memories staring mockingly

at my blank and empty face.

 

And as the slate-gray storm clouds part

such darkened recall comes,

to remind me of my folly,

to shatter all my dreams.

 

But here dear reader I must tell

that I accept my faults

I know my limitations,

my behaviour and results.

 

For herein lies a passion

that beats within my chest

but also leaves me vulnerable

to Satan's dark behest.

 

In my broken heart is honesty

but Catholic sin doth rule,

and leaves me scarred and angry

that life has been so cruel.

 

And so I battle daily

against all worldly slights,

little wonder then, dear reader

that it gets me into 'fights'.

 

But I often tell my demons,

and tell them loud I must,

that when I sleep at night

it is a sleep that's just.

 

08/03/19

Author's Note

Reviews

[TheSick]

Reading through your poems, left me feeling...rather wicked. Thank you for your comment, it was my first (you broke my virginity upon this site). I look forward to reading more of your work.

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Why 'wicked'? Glad to have been the first to review you and I am sure you will enjoy writing more and being here in the Cafe. Welcome!

[TheSick]

I'm probably just transferring, but I noticed a lot of relatable dark undertones in some of your work. So with "wicked" I just actually meant I was intrigued and inspired. Go well!

[TealDreamer]

This kept me hooked until the end. I liked the flow and love your descriptions with the battles people face every day

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Glad you liked it. Many thanks TD

[Chris Shaw]

All of us are flawed. I have never met a perfect person yet. Religion unfortunately does have us riding on that guilt train. Ever aware of all the sins we commit. Would make a change if we could congratulate ourselves for the good we do, but it's always the bad bits that stick like glue. A good read John. Great rhythm to your lines.

Chris

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Thank you Chris. Us Catholic boys feel it most; ask Jacob lol!

[jacob erin-cilberto]

interesting to me this poem...we have talked about this...and being raised Catholic, it's as if no matter how blameless we are in any situation...we still take on that blame, no matter what.
we are raised on "guilt"---
but really we are just human...everyone is and everyone has faults...it's just the way it is.
j.

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Indeed so Jacob; You get this more than most. Thank you.