Looking Back.

I think it was yesterday
Sure she said it was
She’d known about it for weeks
Yesterday was the right time to bring it up
It started months ago
Things were difficult back then
I can’t remember the exact day
Back then
But why would i
You don’t look back, do you
I mean, you don’t think to yourself
Last month i started an affair
People don’t do that
They might say
Last month i ended the affair
It was really about a year earlier
We got talking
Just about past relationships
I mean, you don’t think for a minute
You’re actually entering into a past relationship
But in hindsight maybe you should
It’s been a month since we split up
Looking back
I can see where it all went wrong
But that was yesterday
No point looking back now.

Reviews

[Black Rose]

A lost love you still long for. It's written beautifully. Yes no looking back I know it's difficult to follow and easy to say. Well we all have our way to move forward :)

[Ah'sunaM]

true .... no point of turning back , wats gone is gone nd weflmov forward.

nice piece of writing it is ...

[Paul Bell]

Thanks Ah'sunam. You know what you're doing now.

[Tony Jordan]

I agree with BG totally. The fevered logic of this one really communicates a mind obsessed with a lost love and how it seems to have run through the fingers of the speaker like water.
I could connect with this one deeply Paul, which is not nice.
Excellent piece, I feel.

[Paul Bell]

Sorry Tony. No bad memories on a Sunday.

[B]

Perspective
Some may see this as you avoiding looking. Back on something that ended
Someone else
May see this is an attempt for someone to refresh a relationship and bring back history into a present solid presence that birthes an endless future

Perspective is everything
It's what made a scientist turn an apple into a law of gravity
While another man made an apple a passing item through one's digestive system
Perspective

[Paul Bell]

Perspective. Great word. In a way, it doesn't matter if you start a relationship today. Tomorrow it's in the past. If something is going to send it that way.

[B]

Have you not seen a man hold onto his lover long after she has died and make her a living woman. In everything he does
And some other man make a woman that is so present in his life his past by cheating on her. Forcing her to be the past when she is clearly there. Location and time is irrelevant when it comes to devotion and loyalty. When it comes to real love. Time is nothing. Space is a lie. You only see your lover. There everyday
Perspective

[Paul Bell]

I can see the devotion of love at the end. I can even see the love of decades. The poem depicts the failure, or the futility of two people in an affair knowing the final consequence of their actions. Hence always being in the past tense. We should do this more often.

[B]

I talk too much lol
Too much to say
Tape my mouth lol

[Paul Bell]

Don't change. lol

[B]

I can't change :)

[barleygirl]

This rambling diatribe, to me, is a way of SHOWING instead of telling . . . the mind is nearly scrambled with agonized feelings, so your message isn't one of clarity, but of teeter-tottering on the edge of comprehension. Some short blasts of friendship can be like that, never making sense & all introspection sounds exactly like this.

[Paul Bell]

Aw Margie. We're always looking back. She's just living it. It's the risk of the chase, which you know has to end. So already it's in the past. I think.

[Annette Pisano-Higley]

Hindsight and foresight, past and present of a relationship depicted in this poem..eloquent yet subtle..great flow of nuances. Well-penned!

[Paul Bell]

It all comes together in the words.

[Ken Simm.]

A poem as a conversation with yourself and your concience. This is an idea I like and it is well performed.

[Paul Bell]

Yeah no hiding in the past.