Why me?

I remember it so faintly

Yet

It feels like it happened yesterday

I did it to make you happy

And on the outside

I seemed fine

But

On the inside

I was screaming
I was crying

I was begging for it to stop

I was begging for you to stop

You didn't hear me scream

You didn't see me cry

We fought when I told you "No"

And I became the bad guy

You asked for pictures

And
I become a s**t and a w***e

You make me feel sick

You make me hurt myself

You guilt-trip me

Into being your pet

So I only have one thing left to say

It's funny how people start to listen when your dead

Author's Note

If you have read this poem of mine before you'll realize that i edited some of it before i edited it the last part used to say "So I only have one question for you now, How do you feel knowing i'm gone?" but then i changed it to "So i only have one thing left to say, It's funny how people start to listen when your dead" now the reason i changed that is because when i was in this toxic relationship i did a lot of harm to my body and one day i cut myself and i ended up passing out and i lost a lot of blood thank god my friend came to my house that day cause she found me in my room on my floor she wrapped up my cut as well as she could to stop the blood while she was on the phone with 911 and that day my heart stopped but the doctors got my heart beating again and everyday since i have been the most thankful to my friend because she was there and the reason i want all of you to know this is because if you're in a toxic relationship you NEED to get out of it believe me sometimes a break up can save your life please take my word for it if your friends are telling you "you're in a toxic relationship" believe them and take their word for it at the time it may suck but believe your friends when they tell you something is toxic cause it will save your life even when it's hanging by a thread

Reviews

[Carlos Lorenzo Estrada]

A very moving piece but also very empowering as well. Love and respect begins with self first. If you can't find that within you then you will fall for anyone else's lies. Your insightful poem is a warning to those that should be leery of manipulative people who serve only their self interests.

[Kat]

Thank you for your kind words

[John the Baptist]

Indeed, get out of it. You made the right choice.

[Kat]

Thank you John