I wanted you to...

I wanted you to believe me when I said that I was sorry

but every day you reminded me that you would never believe me

and that you didn’t care.

I wanted you to forgive me

but every day that look in your eyes reminded me that I didn’t deserve forgiveness

and that you hated me with everything you had

I wanted you to stop hating me

but every day my friends reminded me it would never happen

and what I wanted would never be possible

I wanted you to be someone in my life that people loved

but everyday my family reminded me that you were no good for me

and that what I wanted was hopeless cause no one in my life would love you the way I still do

I wanted you to love me

but every day I was reminded by my school that if we were to be there would be severe consequences

and I all I needed to do was act like you didn’t exist, but it felt impossible

I wanted you to believe I was sorry,

I wanted you to forgive me

I wanted you to stop hating me,

I wanted you to be someone in my life that people loved

I wanted you to love me.

I wanted you to…