My Father

you told me that you love me
you tell me that you care
Yet when I need you most
you're never really there

you promise to me blessings
that favor comes for me
lean not to my understanding
in time, you'll set me free

a trial, a tribulation
a storm I am trapped in
a cross that I must bear
ignore my pain and simply grin

So you can move for me a mountain
for you are guiding me
I look to find you, I see nothing
you promised freedom, I'm not free

now I'm feeling so neglected
by a father I did trust
but if this father also fails me
Then on my own, I simply must

go about, just living
and doing only for myself
forgetting passion, helping others
I'll find faith in something else

and if that makes of me a sinner
then who is there to truly blame
my situation isn't changing
I'm left alone, things are the same

ask and I shall receive
A promise you said you would keep
but what you've done to me as of lately
has really cut me deep

you let Satan test of my faith
took away all that was good
I'm at rock bottom, and you know that
and now I never think I would

trust someone who hurts me
They'll just do it once again
that's not how you treat someone who loves you
and I don't want to be your friend

you humble me before you
and I prove my faith to you
humiliation, degradation
and you have yet to come pull through

you tell me it takes patience
you're putting motion to your plan
behind the scenes and simply tinkering
to restore it, make more grand

all that had been taken away
all that you did allow
so I could pull my strength from you
so I would grovel, I would bow

I tire of proving myself
you do this to me every time
inside this misery, I love you
I am yours, and you are mine

this game constantly is playing
you can both play it on your own
if this is your love, then I don't want it
I think I'd rather be alone

it's a path to self destruction
I feel I'm losing of my mind
my soul is slowly dying
I find you cruel, you are not kind

you gave to me the whole world
but the devil had to test
and you let him, you got tempted
you're a hypocrite at best

the divine, when is it coming
I want back what was stolen from me
when you simply turned a blind eye
and destroyed a part of me

who I was before
was someone who believed in you
but I have seen you break your promise
and to me, you were not true

and now you ask me why I'm leaving
give me a reason to stay
It's only torment, just a burden
to walk your path, follow your way

once upon a time, I did believe you
given you chance and still you fail
to prove the faith you have in me
now I'm subjected to this hell

the future I was seeking
it was both you and I
I'm not the same, I have acknowledged
all you've done is made me cry

you say I've changed, yes, I agree
but you're the one who drove me there
the only one who I had trust in
my only father, never cared