My Little Harmoni

This is about a little girl that touched my life so briefly. She reminded me of reasons why I wanted kids. She was a real light in my life.

The day is long,

And I am worn.

I feel the waterworks

building in the creases of my eyes.

But all I have to do

is lean back in my chair

and think of your smile,

your exuberance

and that fresh way you breeze into the room

dragging out the stalemate of my grandmother

her nastiness

that passive agressive way she attacks me

pushes me down

til I am so insecure I cannot think

that anything I will do could ever succeed

But you give me hope

I want to be strong

because you are

I want to protect you

because you try to protect me

I want to love you

because you need my love

you need me

and that is so endearing

remember that first day

when you asked if I would be your mommy?

A dead shrunken hole in my chest

suddenly start to beat

and my hands that were so cold

flooded with life.

For the first time

I could feel

the numbing tingles

began to fade and I saw the world

through your eyes,

it was so beautiful I forgot what it was like!

Your defiance at letting it beat you down

reminded me of when I was like that

but for so long I've been beaten

So long I've been called stupid

and been hurt

I would kill for you!

I don't want you to ever see that again!~

And so now,

While you're away,

Telling your HORRIBLE STORY

To that man of Honour...

I pray,

Yeah me

I don't pray

but tonight,

I am on my knees

Dear God,

Can this souless blob,

ever dare to dream

to have such a thing of perfection

and beauty in her life?

I promise if you give me this gift of fragility and steel

I will shield her from the storm

Just give me a chance!

I'm not as worthless as they say.

I just needed a reason,

to not go,

but to stay.

That little Angel

Crept into my heart

And now

finally

my life has started to start

Author's Note

A girl who came briefly into my life and reminded me of the sweet innocence of a child unspoiled by the world's harsh reality. But in truth, she saw just as much ugliness as I had, and was still determined to seek only the beauty