Endless is the way you have damaged me.

My heart is in a state.....

I can’t deny
That I have clung to this
That I have to be held accountable
For not really wanting this to be over
I can’t be quiet
When all I wanted to do was scream
When you walked out on me
It took me by surprise
I can’t replace
Those years spent in a place far from home that held
Those dreams of my naïve heart
Which I desperately needed to wake from
I can’t move on
From the way you made my heart feel
From the first word you uttered
When you saw my face for the first time
I can’t stay here
Wanting to mean it when I tell you I am
Wanting to move on from the promises
I heard which you didn’t make.
I can’t stand
How hypocritical I sound
As I tell my friends I am past this
As they think I should be
Because I am not.