How Do I

How Do I

I was sitting on the couch

And I felt like my heart was going to burst out my chest

Because I am so stressed

I think of all the bills I have to pay

With what money?

I hate asking for help

I know my family can catch me

It’s the hardest thing for me to do

I don’t want to have to live with this

I didn’t want to work 2 jobs

And burn myself out

But I am going to have to, to live

My luck has never been so great

Every time I turn my back something always goes wrong

How do I make it?

I talked with you on the phone last night

We don’t have to say a word

And it just feels right

You laughing, I’m smiling

It seems so perfect

But I still keep this pain in my heart

And its stopping me from letting you back in

For some reason you showed me that you care

You really care this time

Because for once you made it about me

And not yourself..

Or am I being fooled again…

I wish I didn’t live with this fear

How do I accept you?…

It feels like just yesterday I’m still going to the place I love

But I’m not because it had to end

When I started I didn’t know I would miss it this much

I miss the classrooms, the people, friends , and most importantly myself..

It made me someone, I was happy

And made me forget everything I am going through

The memories live inside of my veins

And the souls stay within my heart

I just can’t forget

How do I walk without you?…

My life has changed

I don’t want to feel this way anymore

What in this world can make me better

What can stop me from shredding tears

How can I lay my head on my pillow and just sleep

How do I just let my feet walk down the right path?….

Reviews

[Deborah Leah Krempa]

Such a sad feeling comes from this poem. The stress of life and paying the bills I understand how you feel. I hope writing helps. Prayers to you. Debileah

[Muddy B.]

BEAUTFUL WRITE
ITS CAPTURING
I LOVED IT

[Sapphire Balasquez]

T__T i totally relate to some of that, it was well written. it almost seems like you're just talking on the longer lines, though, and those could be shortened up. it's so sad! but I like it a lot, very well tied together. perhaps you could watch out for unintentional rhyming at the beginning you used "chest" and "stressed" and it seems as though you could start rhyming but you don't. ^^ just watch out for that. good job! very heart-wrenching!