Disappointed In Me

Disappointed In Me..

I walked into your kitchen

You asked how I was

And I told you I was fine

The sound of my voice caught your attention

You looked deep inside of me and knew something was wrong

But you didn’t say anything to me

You asked where am I working

And I pointed at my shirt

Your head dropped to the ground

You rolled your eyes at me..

I knew exactly why you were..

You told me I could do so much better

I told you its just been a hard time

And I took what was offered to me..

You looked at me with so much disappointment

You told me if I ever needed something to call you

I know I can go to any of you in my college

And I know you wouldn’t laugh me out of there

You would lend a hand out to me

That’s why I walked out of there feeling disappointed in myself..

I always thought what I was doing with my life was good..

But for some reason every time I turn around someone is disappointed in me..

For what?.. What am I doing wrong?

I got a job.. It might not be the best but its something

I am graduating college.. Most 19 year olds can’t even get themselves to college

I pay my bills.. I am struggling but its not forever

I got a car.. That I am safe in

I am thinking about going back to college.. I just got to figure that out

I have done something that most would not approve of

But it was my decision to do and I wanted it..

Everyone does it sooner or later..

I just did it sooner than expected

Sometimes we do things that we aren’t suppose to

But if we didn’t want to do it then we wouldn’t have done it

My life is going in the right direction

So don’t be disappointed in me

Reviews

[Gravedigger]

If only these people could read everything you have written and see what I see. My parents are having severe empty nest syndrom, and not to sound cold or uncaring, but I have the date set for when I will move out. I for one couldn't be more proud of you, Kylie. As long as you have dreams and you are happy with who you are, that is all that matters.

[Larissa G.]

Lots and lots of emotion buried within your poem. It's a sad fact if life, too, and it takes a long time to learn how to ignore the nagging - especially when you disappoint the ones you care about.
Not bad. Keep writing, dear. :)