The Me you See

First impressions are just YOUR impressions of me

The me you see, is just a pale umbra of whom I’m supposed to be.

 

I’m just a toad at the wall who can’t make the jump up,

I try and I try and I just bounce off.

It’s a cliff so sheer and high that it’s a trick to defy the eye.

 

But what I really don’t know is that I’m just a toad in the road

and it’s just a small curb on a street I’ve come up against.

 

I tell myself one more jump…kerplunk!

My little toad head hurts like hell from all the bashing

against the wall it’s felt.

 

If I can just find a crack and crawl in and wind my way up.

 

But that would require luck…f**k

Where the hell am I going to get any of that?

 

So I’m a toad,

not a frog a princess can kiss.

Sorry no prince underneath  miss

 

But I will be the prince of toads one day

So f**k the frog I say!

and I look for that crack in the wall,

no matter how small.

 

 

By Philip Wardlow 2012