Numb

I feel so empty,

So dumb and worthless.

So empty and bare.

Why do I bother?

Why do I care?

Does she really love me? or is it just a lie?

Am I really her guy?

Will she cheat on me?

Like the ones before?

No,I mustn't think of that.

She loves me,she said so.

But how can I trust anyone again?

Afterall, my ex cheated on me with my best friend.

I shouldn't need to pretend that I'm okay,

But I promised her that I am.

What did I do to deserve what happened to me?

I really hope that she stays.

I love her so much.

I hope she doesn't go away.

I love her,I tell you.

Even when I feel numb.

Depression and my own thoughts have become my enemies,my nemeses.

My own lie.

But I love her,I'm sure I do.

But How would I know?

Maybe the meds are telling me to?

It's so hard being me.

But i love her I tell you,

I'll show you,you see.

Reviews

[That1Nerd23]

I love the strong emotions you expressed in this poem. Very nice!