Reluctance

I want to reluctantly and with uncertainty hold you, caress you.

With shaky and unstable hands I want to keep your heart in my grasp.

Though my voice is as loud as a muffled whisper I want to speak bittersweet nothings into your ear.

I want to fearfully confess my feelings, airing out my regrets for life cannot reset.

I want to reluctantly and with uncertainty hold your hands and kiss your lips.

I want to make futile attempts at being a person to be missed.

With shaky and unstable hands, I want to shape a fate and future with you by my side.

A fate and future with nothing left to hide.

For darkness has been my prior companion for far too long.

Though my voice is as loud as a muffled whisper let me sing you this song.

A song of all the world's wrongs done towards my meager existence.

My lack of resistance has been my crutch even if it doesn't support much.

I want to reluctantly and with uncertainty tell you that I love you, and I'm sorry for ever writing goodbye.

Will you accept the apologies from this wobbly frame?

I promise to become stronger for I cannot become any weaker.

Vulnerable to naive fools with foolish dreams in their eyes, eyes I've yet to see.

Yet their innocence can spark confidence, and confident is what I want to be.

I'll bite my tongue now to stop the ramblings.

And let my actions assume the duties of making these things happen.

Reviews

[Denise]

very beautiful! Inspires me to try to better my flow of words when I make a feeble attempt at poetry.