My Two Fathers

A true story about my current feelings

My Two Fathers

You were my only father
But I've been told I have two
One says he is going to die
The other says he died for me

You said you couldn't believe what I did
My other father kept me calm
You acted like you didn't understand why I left
My other father helped my survive

Do you know how many times
I've spun my knife
Thought of jumping in the street
Debated on hanging from a wired cord

No
You didn't
You watched your T.V. shows
My other father told me to be strong

You left me with pain and sorrow
My other father left me a book with his words in red
You didn't even get to know me
My other father saw my pain

You never cared about the man I'm becoming
About the times I worried about you
About the days I wept like a babe
About the many hours I spent practicing literature

What about me
What about my pain
F**k you problems
You hardly even noticed me

Do you remember
The time you cut cried on my shoulder
I was there for you
I never judged you

My other father was there for me
He still is
We talked about him on Sundays
You even said he was there for you

Why can't you be there for me then huh
Am I not good enough
Do I embarrass you as a son
You knew nothing about me

Why were you never my father
You piece of s**t
You almost made me kill myself
But you wouldn't have cared if I did would you

My other father makes me work for what I need
But I know he is there
He calms me
He is now my only father

You might have been my father by blood
He is mine by spirit
Some mock him
I feel sorry for their loss

Remember me father of blood
for I am your child you abandoned
When the world knows my name
You will never forget it

Do you doubt my promise of success
Because you've accomplished nothing
I will become know to the world
Or I will die trying

You were never a father
But my other father was
You will soon realize
the horrible mistake you have made

Reviews

[Cynthia]

Its a very sad but strong feel you bought out. Father by blood, Father by spirit. They were all your dad, but just... one you cannot feel for him, and he even hurt you badly ; one who support you when you needed support most.The thing that hurt most is that your father by blood, the one who born you should have resposibility to you while he don't, I understand how painful can it be.
I really hope you'll feel better soon.

[DemonicVeil]

Why is it that something bad has to go on for someone to write a good poem. I do have to admit that this poem is deep though. You Rocked That! Plus it's sad that I like that it would take the world to have to know your name for one person, one of your two father's, to never forget it.

[alexlessah]

I love this poem, I know what its like to feel like this, so i'm very sorry.