Past Promises Made To Myself

A phone rings, reality would like a word

News that was cruel, obscene and absurd

Regret was a wave that blocked out all else

As I thought of past promises made to myself

Promises of family, of friends, and health

Things more important than the chasing of wealth

I would change things then, no matter the cost

Learn what mattered from my last tragic loss

The shock of this moment, frozen in place

I hear their words, but I see your face

So full of life, and love, and grace

Now all that remains is an empty space

I didn't make the changes I promised I would

Old habits are easy while life's going good

I once saw clearly, with the help of my sorrow

Then once again blinded, by a promised tomorrow

Things that we did in the time that we shared

Now told to your family to show that I cared

Good times, great days and the things that we dared

Empty words when the depth of the loss is compared

I had means, I had time, I could have made room

It was never a thought you could leave so soon

No words can right wrongs, no matter how true

My deepest regret is I missed out on you

I remember you never liked tears or goodbyes

So I'll see you soon, and wipe these from my eyes