Illusion

i hear some girl are lied to Serah wasn't promised anything. She hated betrayal. She hoped for loyalty

Serah assumed all her life. She didn't demand accountability she questioned her partner loyalty the found an answer herself. In absence of promise she filled the gap with her own analysis.. She would look at his body language and find a slight perception that dictated that the partner was to trustworthy to be questioned. She was in his house one morning, she had spent the night by the way. Let's name this one T. In the morning, there was a knock on the door, he was in bed so he got up went and opened the door she heard him exchanging greetings in his language with a female. Then dashed back in the room and put a finger on his lips to indicate she should be quiet. He went bask out in the living room it was a self contained studio. he had a short chat with the visitor and suddenly voices erupted, she was screaming. she was crying she tried to enter the bedroom but he obstructed. standing by the door, She struggled trying to get her way but finally let go and left still crying. Serah felt like he didn't like the visitor or so she decided in her crippled mind. It felt like Serah just won a battle and she was proud. If ever you win such a battle, it's only a matter of time before you stand in the same position. Serah peeped through the curtains and saw her backside as she frantically walked away. He didn't say much afterwards. Later on Serah wrote him a letter. She is  not sure he ever read it from beginning to the end. Her questions were: who she was and why he had never mentioned her. The only thing he said after Serah's long unnoticed agony was that, if she had not picked and kept his keys, he would have ask for forgiveness. This is the time when each young girl should press on clarity and face the hard truth that will set her free although painful to digest. She created her whole scenario in her mind and added to the little that he said about the visitor being careless with his sick mum. We women would want to come in a man's life and erase all the wrongs he has ever experienced. S started paying attention to his language and in time i could communicate. I knew not that ties people have among themselves go beyong speaking their language, loving their food or even learning how to cook them. It was a shock. Society have a way to fashioned one's mind. She was convinced if she got married to him every other thing will fall into place including hi cheating. She was wrong. T. would say few words when it came to personal conversations. She never initiated any conversation that would hold him accountable. She avoided that confrontation. In her broken mind she saw her late sister fight her husband all the time and she concluded that if she didn't fight like oppose his views everything will be fine. People are not meant to look alike or to have the same value of again to love the same way. Men and women don't feel or express love the same way. Neither do the viw it the same way too. These were exactly what went wrong from the beginning. It had never gone beyong regular. From time to time he would make sure he initiate conversations about topics and take her through a well constructed brainwashing session where he will make sure at the end she sees that topic and every other similar one the wy he wanted her to see them and not the way he saw them himself. One evening she came to his apartment and she saw him leaving with a woman. She looked mature enough to be above his age. To the question he asked what he was doing with her he merely replied, do you mean Beatrix? and that was all. Her agony was borne from the acceptance she made of his lifestyle. Serah thought he was too serious to betray or cheat, He was a passionate lover and she was addicted to him. If that was enough nothing would have shaken the relationship. The attachment 2 partners feel towards each other can never prevent them from growing apart. One funny Sunday, as an old housekeeper in the apartment next door met with them  (she had paid him a Sunday visit and he seeing her off), and casually said something like" where is the girl that used to come here, fair in complexion and plum like that?) he said nothing cut a short smile and moved on trailed by Serah. No word was said about the girl. Not only did Serah carefully avoided the topic but she felt like a champion because one contender was off. She had a feeling of winning him. Why would a mere human being win someone over? Anyone who value a friendship would adjust to suit the other one. She used to replay the scenario in her mind and feel like she was in the picture when another one left. She moved around wearing her imaginary crown. What an illusion. These were the type of encounter that in case Serah pushed he would declare his true self and Serah would have no option than to choose her peace. So he carefully lay a life where he was never questioned and was never accountable for anything as that. Someone later said his won father had never done anything for him or his mum. So the little effort he was putting in the relationship with Serah was a huge milestone. If i could prophesy, i would sit every girl and tell her that signs don't lie. companionship is beautiful but your peace of mind was even more beautiful.