My Awakening

Hidden feelings and emotions... Enjoy!

A girl; beautiful, loving, understanding, and sought help

She was not a stranger to me; she was a friend.. but I wished for more than just being a friend with her.
She aimed for my help; I disregarded her because she wanted another to share her love with.
It wasn't me.. And this made my heart tear into oblivion, into a dark void.

My mind was the only thing left that could guide me to my actions.. But my reply went with a harsh shudder of "NO".. A pathetic excuse.

She now becomes distant, unsocial, indifferent towards me now...
After a longevity of despair and sorrow, she visits me once again.. but with the same expression on her face as before; indifference..

She said one thing, one single statement that opened my eyes, "I hate that you push everyone away!" -And off she disappeared..

My eyes went from blackening sorrow to a normal, blue hue; my awakening.

She found the key to the locked door and opened it for me!
I was no longer "lost" ; the reason I acted that way in the past!

As I walked through the glittering door, bursting with a gust of light, tears dripped down my face, hitting the cold floor that had mercy of allowing me to even walk on it.

I was here, past one of my first obstacles in the gauntlet we call life.

Still.. Something was missing.. The light, it was gone.. I was blind!

My sight was missing, but so was one vital thing.. It was her. She was missing.

Death.. I now felt his cold desire beside me... And..

It didn't bother me now.. I welcomed it in my new place of awakening.

Author's Note

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