1:38 A.M and still not feeling lonely

I’m not going to write poetry 

for the sake 
of love
this time.

I refuse to admit 
you left me with feelings 
best expressed 
on paper 
and I’m not going to 
romanticise depression 
as if it is some illness 
to look up to.

I’m wasting my time 
writing about things 
that I never understood
- and frankly,
never will.

You left questions 
scattered all over me 
and this poem isn’t about 
searching for answers 
or about 
filling up that hole 
you left inside of me 
- because I am stronger 

than that.

I’m going to carry 
that hole 
with pride 
and tell everyone who asks about it 
that it is my war wound.

Because I stood brave 
the moment my world collapsed 
and I learned to keep breathing 
although my heart 
was suffocating and my bones 
were shaking 
under my skin.

No, I am not going to write poetry 
for the sake of love 

- I am stronger than that.

Reviews

[Blogger]

This is original and unique. I like how you have figured out this situation and you have decided to clearly move on in spite of what others might think or do in the same situation. Good for you!

[Robin]

thanks for the review (: