The hollowed heavy heart

I was having some kind of anxiety attack and Wrote what I was feeling. It felt like I was drowning. Strange feeling, but since I wrote this, I've felt better and haven't suffered an attack.

Something burrows deep within this hollowed, heavy heart. A sinking hole that love can't fill is tearing it apart.

An empty feeling of utter despair, I want to run and hide, rather than stand to face my darkest fear - I cower deep inside.
​I hear them in the hollow where they whisper and taunt, all alone in this silent battle, deep in the shadows where they haunt.

My body moves, yet my mind is far away,
becoming a ghost to the life it no longer wants to claim.

​They say grief is just love that has nowhere left to go.
I tried to keep it in this hollowed heart, but it seeped out through the sinking hole.

In the space you left, you left a scar of a phantom pain.

They say with time the hurt will pass, but every day it remains.

​Now, bitter howling winds scream through its hollowed walls,
longing to hear the ring of an unanswered call.

I close my eyes and search, like a surgeon in my mind,
to patch and seal the space that your absence left behind.

​Then a memory of a golden light spilled through like a roaring sea.

It chased the shadows hidden in its halls and made the darkness flee.

Now the heart no longer hollow, as the heaviness becomes light.

There is room at last for tomorrow,
and its corridors are filled with healing light.

Author's Note

Do you feel it too?

Reviews

[Relic]

I had them years ago. I recall shopping and abandoning the shopping cart so I could get out of there. I don't get them anymore but I do get a twinge every once in a while. I have no answers as to what causes yours, but I would venture to say you answered your own question.

Could it be that something happened when you were very young? Some incident that happened so long ago you can't even identify it yet it pops up inside without warning and takes over?

Whatever the answer, I believe writing is an outlet that can douse the flames of its fire. Many write to avoid the demons that epitomize the words 'uninvited guest.'

I'm glad I read this. I'm sure (as I can see below) many identify with the subject.

Good write.

[RomaJ]

Relic, Thank you for dropping by and your heartfelt review. I am honored:) It says a lot of what I was feeling when I wrote this and yes, I do still get a little "twinge" now and then but not as bad as when I wrote this. I do find joy in writing and it helps but I'm still trying to find my bliss, hopefully we all find our bliss through our writes. Thank you again:)

[Relic]

No problem, you're welcome.

[CA Anurag Sharma]

Good read.... liked the flow of it... very well written

[RomaJ]

Thank you, Anurag. I appreciate it. Thanks for stopping by.

[Daisygirl]

Wow, that's an amazing poem! And I can totally relate to it too!

[RomaJ]

Thank you, Daisy.

[beckyflowa]

Very good, really enjoyed this poem. I could relate alot to this:)

[RomaJ]

Thank you for reading it.

[Gee]

Lots of people will be able to relate to this,life's ups and downs.Good job.

[RomaJ]

I hope so. Thank you.

[wordman]

a emotional write,pain of love ,pain of life

[RomaJ]

Thank you again. I appreciate it.

[Linus Letting]

Nice piece.!

[wordman]

you're welcome

[Suppressed Minds]

I enjoyed reading your poem. I was touched by it and in some places I felt as if i could relate to it.

[RomaJ]

Thank you, Damian.