You are everything i'll need

When i needed you
You weren't there?
I STRUGGLED ALONE
I wept day and night.
My eyes redden with grief
left all alone to suffer alone
crippled with emotional pain
I struggled to make sense
Of your continued rejection
Right to the grave
You are dead.
and aim barely existing
not living
doubled up with grief
Why did you hate me so
I grew in your womb
Why on earth could you
not of loved me like
a Mother should
Were was the affection
why did you not give
me any attention.
mum you hurt me so bad
and that is so sad.
I cannot heal this hurt
So I thank my Savior above
He never abandons us
No not ever
But you abandoned me
But my pain is your rejection
it is more than i can take
but Jesus you carry me
in your arms
and you give me strength
hope and a will to carry on.
because you Jesus are my
everything