It's Hard To Tell (Wondering)

Poem written after a personal dance with my ex-boyfriend at my friend's quincenera in late July. Took me a while to upload it here at the Cafe. This poem describes my confusion at that time, but now I've got it all straightened out. Yay! Anyways, the poem

Do you still love me?

I couldn’t tell—

What do I do about you?

We danced as if we still knew each other so well.

 

You told me to trust you,

and careful I said, “promise me.”

With a sincere and gentle smile,

you answered, “Gladly.”

 

So you took my hand

and pulled me to the ballroom floor.

But I honestly couldn’t help

but resist even more.

 

“What is this?” I asked myself.

“Am I falling in love again?

I thought we were over

when you ended it way back then.”

 

I can’t do this.

This isn’t right.

What am I doing,

setting such a sight?

 

My heart is tangled—

What can I do?

What do I feel?

Am I in love with you?

 

My heart cannot decide

while the song comes to an end

A smile, a flicker of hope—

To you, am I more than just a friend?

 

 

Author's Note

Anytyhing helps. Thanks again. :)