The hidden Animal

This is the first proper poem I've written, a sort of adaptation of a poem I wrote years ago.

I’m a wolf. Charging through the forest,

running like a storm.

The woods are my home

and they make me feel at peace like nowhere else.

 

I’m a wounded raven.

Wishing to fly low from building to building,

but knowing that I never can-

that I’ll never have the miraculous feeling of the wind through my feathers

and the adrenaline in my veins.

 

I’m a raccoon. Scuttering between the mountains of junk,

finding the rare treasures

that others would consider worthless.

I bring them to my den,

a collection of rusted gems that I hold in my hand.

I stroke them gently, feeling calmer with each touch.

 

I’m a ghost. Floating through life-

no personality, no hobbies, not knowing anything about anything.

I possess people, picking up their likes and dislikes

but unsure of who I am, and what I want.

All I know for sure is that I often feel empty.

 

I’m at a circus.

In a hall of strange mirrors,

mirrors that show your true self.

I go to see the mirrors every day,

and every day I see something different.

One day I see a blob of disgust and decay,

 a selfish animal who deserves nothing.

Another day I see a lost human-

one who gets a happy ending, a happy life.

Whichever reflection I see, I hope for the future.

I hope for love.

I hope for prosperity.

I hope for happiness.

But I’m so confused.

 

I’m a human. I’m looking for myself.

Everyone says I have all the time in the world,

but I feel the sands of the hourglass pouring through my fingers like water.

I’m a human. Young, lost, confused.

Sometimes I look at my skin and feel content,

other times I look and will cuts to seep into it like vines.

I’m human, and I don’t know what I’m doing with my life.

But I’m alive and luckier than some,

the ones with no home or family or friends.

I focus on that every day, no matter how empty I feel.

Because there’s always a chance for that happy ending.  

Author's Note

I'm always happy to have constructive criticism (what I could do better ect.)