Goodbye my love.

Goodbye my love.

We met, and parted many times.
And I kept my promise to come see you on the other side of the world.
Thank you for letting me borrow your car. And the unexpected underground show.
I still deeply regret throwing away the snow globe. I was a young fool.
Hope your marriage goes well.

Goodbye my love.

A short two weeks. A yes, and then a no.
We met at the army football tourney. I a grunt, and you an officer to be.
Your grandparents saw something.
I still remember you. Do you still remember me?

Goodbye my love.

The contract unsigned that still gets under my skin to this day.
The rough parting in mid winter.
Did I see you once more on a train?
Did you try to tell me something?

Goodbye my love.

The taxi to the coast,
and the romantic cozy flat with metered heating I'll remember forever.
The stories, and the lovely scrunched up face as if to refute something.
May your projects bloom with all their strength.

Goodbye my love.

You worked so hard to achieve the body you desired.
Once a walk to where you lived.
You were more upset than happy, that I managed to post you a goodbye present.
How's America treating you?

Goodbye my love.

Your father was the postman.
And you laughed at me when I fell in, after fumbling the paddle.
At the time it was a bad memory.
Now it is a good one.

Goodbye my love.

A strange twist of fate.
One night, and cartoons, and more. 
A morning with bacon.
The buses don't run on the weekend.

Goodbye my love.

Your love for your family.
Your shutting your eyes while I drove.
The christening. And all the chaos.
Godspeed, wherever you're going.

Goodbye my love.

To the shared martial art.
And your intelligent pet rats.
And parents who go on cruises.
You asked if you would be my girlfriend. 
I was shallow about your spelling. Though you never knew.

Goodbye my love.

Meeting at an anime convention. Empathy.
Playing a silly skylanders game.
Your three cats, the good, the cat-sociable, and the queen.
Worry about how your boyfriend would feel. Without being able to talk to him.

Goodbye my love.

You made us walk for two hours instead of getting a bus or taxi.
I made you go in to the other toilets.
Short but sweet.
I hope your happiness only increases.

Goodbye my love.

Thank you for hosting me in your fourth floor room, 
with the toilet in the basement.
Your brightness still clings to me,
as I'm sure my darkness clings to you.

Goodbye my love.

Deer in the headlights,
We saw your grandma off, and you drove, even though you couldn't. We sang.
The horse who recognized you after years of absence.
And your relentless pursuit at helping me try to get better.

Goodbye my love.

For supporting me, and giving me what I asked for.
A couple's gaming room, and a house for guests, and freedom
Your ever warm and kind presence gave hope of a brighter tomorrow. and me.
For letting me a part of your family, and holiday in the cobble-together cottage.

Goodbye my love.

A thirteen year pause to a fling.
It tasted just as bitter, and as sweet.
May your children grow up to be fine people,
and you grow as a happy family.

Goodbye my love.

Thank you for the time you've spent with me.
I cherish it.
I wish I could talk to you again, to reminisce, to kindle some kinship
I'm sorry that you don't feel the same

Goodbye my love.

I'm sorry I broke you with my needs.
I'm sorry I wasn't better with your friends, and pets.
I'm sorry I am who I am.
I'll be better in the next life.
I promise