Between you and I

My mind is running, I feel betrayed...I betrayed

I missed your call
I always do
I rarely talk to you
Wait..I never do
Your always on my mind
But that's as far as it'll go
Will I ever see you?
I just don't know
We have to wait
Let time flow
Sometimes it's hard without you here
Sometimes I let the fear steer
I know I will betray you
I already have
Can you forgive me?
Why am I asking that?