Secrets of abuse

Whilst my family were away in Canada, I dealt with some underlying issues I had within myself. Mainly that I went through sexual abuse as a child and they never knew.

Everyone has secrets
And mine are hidden deep
A secret of utter agony
I had no choice but to keep.
As youngest in my family
I watched my parents strain
To keep sane my siblings
I watched them and their pain.
I saw the eldest use them,
My sister caused them grief,
My brother was a challenge
And someone was a thief.
I felt I had to shield them,
Keep them from feeling bad,
So they never saw my fears
Never noticed I was sad.
Each Thursday I was touched,
By a man who gained their trust,
Abused throughout my childhood
Innocence turned to rust.
Yet I could never say a word,
I could never let them know
What they let happen to me
What seed's they helped to sow.
I'm older now and silent
About my hidden past
Could I ever tell them?
Could this secret truly last?

Reviews

[sonnie ibadah]

This is really deep and powerful. Your honesty is so brave and inspiring. We all have secrets but past abuse especially by family members is a taboo subject we never want to talk about or admit even to ourselves. But truth be told it is the first step of healing. Thank you for sharing hun

[Sarah Saz]

Beautiful poem, told with feeling. Sometimes there are too many secrets we have to keep. Great you were able to express yourself through your poem.

[Sam87]

Thank you x

[cimmy wuv xxxooo]

This is extreamly deep and powerful.
You are such a strong person I admire you.
WOW just WOW to this poem.
This is an amazing write, I love your rhyme scheme once again, so flawless and perfect as always.
You are just so real so honest, so strong, its inspiring.
I hope you get through all your tough times.
I am sorry to here about the abuse you got, some people are very sick in the head.
AMAZING POEM!
You are extreamly talented :)

[johnnywallman]

wow, powerful stuff, read it a few times, only you can answer that question. keep writing sam, you may not be sure if they're any good, i think they are.

[EvaThornburn]

I could feel your pain in this write. Brought tears to my eyes. No one deserves to be treated that way. I know your afraid to tell but you must. He could be hurting others too. Praying for you. Eva

[Sam87]

Thank you, I wrote this many years ago now, and my family are fully aware now x I told them in the end and received councilling.

[EvaThornburn]

I'am so happy to hear this. Will still keep you in my prayers. Eva