I will keep promising myself to hate you.

I still love you more than I love myself.

 

You can move away with other guys,
Fall in love with someone else
Use me for sex and nothing else
You can run run run run,
Go back on everything you ever said,
And I will let you.

 

Who ever knew forever could hurt like this?

 

We had it all and blew it up,
Emotionally unstable, I wouldn't
Want me either.
You didn't want me to wear concealer,
"Show me", you said, you told me to reveal.

 

Voila.

 

I will keep promising myself to hate you.

 

Little moments of slushy insanity,
Filth, all I ever wanted,
You will never read this
So its kinda pointless and sort of gutless,
But you should know

I can't keep living in the past tense.
This is desire in it's purest sense.
Stay with me.

 

Reviews

[Spoken]

This is desire in it's purest sense....

yes it is! there's a sense of volnurability felt in your words. Like a deep sigh.

I like the addition of:

You will never read this
So its kinda pointless and sort of gutless,
But you should know

you are writing to her but know she will never read.. knowing these words are what you wish you could say if you had the strength to tell her, so instead they become a release of emotional baggage left behind from the relationship. I enjoyed this, well done!

[Raef C. Boylan]

Hello there, you straight-talking, helpless romantic.
He/she is lucky to have had you in their life, methinks.
I enjoyed how conversational the tone of this piece was.

Thanks to Emily Burns for sharing it with me.

p.s.
"So its kinda pointless and sort of gutless" [it's]
"This is desire in it's purest sense." [its]

[emz]

A great poem full of emotion.. love the way you portray the feelings of wanting to hate but knowing it is a hard thing to do, when love far outweighs the power of hate.

Fab

Emma

[~IlOvEcHrIsToPhErBuRnEt..]

i have never read something quite like this before. i like this

[Emily B]

Desire in its purest sense. Boiled down to the bare bones of it all. This piece is a little less intense than your usual work which is why I think it grabbed me so completely.