Ashamed

I was told I loved wrong at a young age,

Now the only love I feel is shame. 

inferior, 

I feel wearier every time 

I express my feelings,

Kneeling,

 Suppressing what I thought had meaning, 

Sinning and seeping,

Weeping,

 it doesn't go away. 

Why can't I change?

I ask God, Why can't I change?

Won't lose my faith 

but have none in myself,

I have nothing more to gain,

I feel ashamed.