Afraid

Afraid...

I look at you with fear...
I look at your last movements...
I look at you without any words to say...

Speechless... Or my mouth is numb that it can't describe it in words...
There you are... right in front of me...and I can't say a single word...

I am leaving...
with so many things to say...
with so many things to tell you...
but, with a lot of fear, I don't say word...
I don't want to get hurt again...
I am afraid you will kill me again with your harsh words...
I am afraid to tell you that I am leaving...
and you would just look at me and walk away...

Without a single move...
Leaving me with nothing at all...

If I could just read your eyes...
everything would have been solved...
I can't...
read you need super powers...and I don't have any...

I am telling you now...
and as I type those words down...
I will truly miss you...
I will leave...
to another place...
and go find myself again...
I feel so lost that I can't remember who I am anymore...
all I did was give and give while I was the one in need ..

Funny you're the broken one but I'm the only one who needed saving...
I don't know how to look you in the eye without saying a word...
I don't know how to leave without saying goodbye...
that's if you even care that I am leaving...

I guess there is nothing to do but look at you...
and my eyes will do the rest...

And just walk away...