Paths

When you see that you want to travel down every path life presents you with just to find yourself, you end up tearing yourself apart...

Have you ever wondered what's worse?

To feel pain or to feel nothing at all?

I'm caught between the two

Not knowing which to choose

If I feel pain am I weak?

If I'm empty am I cold?

Do I turn to a shoulder?

Do I wall out the world?

Is either right?

Or is everything wrong?

Is there a right and wrong?

Or just a thought and did?

Why is nothing easy?

Why is just being happy so hard?

What's better?

To have complete control or to just let go?

If I choose control am I crazy?

If I don't do I not care?

Is that why life is so hard?

Because I care?

What if I didn't care?

Would all of this go away?

What am I?

Pained?

Empty?

Weak?

Cold?

Right?

Wrong?

Controlled?

Crazy?

Apathetic?

Why can't I just be

Me