Past Mistakes

My body remains frozen, when will you appear

The blood flow is stagnate, the cells are full of fear

I must forbear my thoughts, to just up and run

Where do I find the strength to stay till it's done

My face looks so impassive, but inside it's a nightmare

No one in sight, yet I'm hearing "I'll be right there"

I was beguiled to believe, the pain wouldn't last long

Feeling so guilty, nothing looks right, everything sounds wrong

Is this normal, I'm noticing my faith being subverted

The once surged courage, has now been deserted

I stare deep into my reflection, listening as my heart speaks

Resilient eyes, exploiting painful past mistakes down my cheeks

I desperately cry out for help, to that true inner me

He says "I'm here now, forgive yourself, and be free"

I relinquish the past hurtings, pains, and past mistakes

To be unfeignly happy, I've learned that's what it takes

Author's Note

Just trying something a little bit outside my norm, so it sounds a little off, but I'm still looking for honest opinions. Thanks.