Self Harm. An addiction.

This is how I feel about my best friend, the razor blade.

I need it.
It's an addiction,
It's the only reason I can be strong enough to plaster that fake smile on.
The one I wish people will never see through, while hoping that someone will care enough to realize it's not real.
It is the strength in which I carry myself through the days.
The blood is the pain, flowing freely from my body.
the physical pain is the emotional pain that will never recede.

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[popculturejunkie]

so relatable and so so true

[watch_the_world]

this is very true for most people including myself.
be stronger than it xD

[fireblossom]

A very good poem about a sad, sad subject. The story the razor teaches is "Yes...you are alive sweetness".

Here's something that I found many years ago...perhaps I was your age then -

To break the glass and twist the knife into yourself;
You've got to be a fool to understand.
To bring your woman back home after she's left you for another,
You've got to be a, you've got to be a man.

From Anyday by Eric Clapton on the Layla album. See? He knows what love or loves void or loves pain or twisted love etc can do to us. We think if only I can feel and smell life I will survive. Eric survived and so do we.

[AchingAlexandra]

Thank you.

[olivia]

impossibly accurate for so many people...

"To Write Love On Her Arms"


http://www.twloha.com/vision/story/

[deeps]

The blood is the pain, flowing freely from my body.
the physical pain is the emotional pain that will never recede.

I really like these words, they sum up what you written about.
I can feel this. Very nicely written.