Why...?

I can't,
I really can't.

I can't eat,
I can't sleep,
I can't breath,
I can't live.

yet,
here I am,
continuing on,
suffocating,
yet living,
passing out,
yet staying awake,
Starving,
but not hungry.

Why can't I be,
a normal girl,
with a normal body,
a normal mind?

Why can't I be,
like everyone else?

Why am I so ugly,
inside and out?

Why does this always happen,
to me,
and almost,
no one else?