Instead

I played Russian Roulette today

The trigger felt amazing

Your shadow stopped me

I felt complete

To destroy you

Instead

 

Just like when you say Baby

And smile bright

Like a circus light 

I love you

Instead

 

I planned your Demise today

The trigger felt amazing

My shadow stopped me

I felt complete

To destroy myself

Instead

 

Just like when I say Baby

And lie in spite

This is my right

That I love you

Instead

 

I had a Blade made just for two 

The look and feel is amazing

There will be no shadows in this foreplay

I felt complete

To destroy Us

Instead

 

Just like when we say Baby

Turning in that perfect Circle

Like a Merry go round

That I perfectly hate you

Instead

 

Author's Note

Instead, is about honesty. There is a breaking point, its different for everyone. I now know mine. I never actually played Russian Roulette, the symbolism is perfect for the final chapter of my marriage. My ex and I are so volatile we still can not be in the same room together after 3 years. If your still reading I thank you and GOD BLESS.

Sheer Terror

Reviews

[Julie McCarthy (juliesp..]

Thanks for entering my competition good poem

[Harley Quinn]

This is great. Very beautifully written. Keep writing! :)

[apennylate]

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*I had a Blade made just for two
The look and feel is amazing
There will be no shadows in this foreplay
I felt complete
To destroy Us
Instead*

Some things end... Explosively... Yet even more brilliance displayed here... Bravo'

[TerryDarcy-Ryan akaSheerTerror]

Mr. Silente these mere words set me free. I have never looked back. Than you for this review

Sheer Terror

[danielle.]

The right words make art of the ugliest emotions. I really like the layout too, repeating but still evolving.

[TerryDarcy-Ryan akaSheerTerror]

Yes I agree with you it can be powerful to take an experience from an ugly place to a place that empowers. I thank you for your great review. God Bless

Sheer Terror

[Writtenabyss]

Amazing poem I love all the symbolism. I know how you feel I have lived in denial my whole life and am finally escaping it.

[TerryDarcy-Ryan akaSheerTerror]

Thank you for taking the time to read and review.
God Bless

[ern]

I love all the metaphors and similes. Especially 'smile bright like a circus light".

[TerryDarcy-Ryan akaSheerTerror]

Thank you so much for taking the time to read and review " Instead ". The line you refer to, I am describing my beloved as a fake, a blatent one. He is daring and riculous with his deception, like a clown. Thank you again and God Bless

Sheer Terror

[Lovecraft]

A beautiful juxtaposition between Love and Hate. Love and Hate are strange bedfellows, but they follow a somewhat common pattern in life.

I'm sorry that you and a former love hate one another so much but that is where true inspiration comes into being; Experiences are what guide us, what train us to be the people we are.

A depressingly good poem about the illustration of Love and Hate.

[Madisson]

I thought it was amazing! I truly enjoyed the symbolism and the deep feelings that you touched on. I felt so nervous and excited waiting to see what happened as I read, really wonderful!

[Michael S]

I am quite stunned reading this , SK
What to say....I felt this too deep
The hatred is a strange word sometimes it has its origin from the word called love...love is hatefully dangerous....instead you got the freedom at the end..
I love your writing for the originality it holds.
Keep up the good work.

[mercy party]

hardcore. the poem was sharp, and that's what you have to be to make it through this. This must have taken some supernatural endurance. work like this helps a lot of people who are losing steam. Thanks!