Do you Believe?

          I walk in the crowded streets alone. Lots of people, yet I feel so lonely. My hands feel cold, yet they rest in my pockets since I exited the house. My mind so empty, yet I feel something filling it; filling me with loneliness. My feet pick up speed, and they lead me forward. I stop near the intersection, thinking of what I have done, and why? I remember the main reason I stepped out of that apartment. Then I realize. It was because I lied. I am a liar. I am a sinner.

‘Minty!’

That voice. A voice I never wanted to hear, especially now.

‘Minty! Are you hearing me?’

Her voice screeched through my ears.

‘Why aren’t you replying?’

She stands in front of me, accusing me with her eyes, and I lower my head in defense.

‘What happened between you and Gary? Tell me’

No dear, you’re the only person I wouldn't talk to.

“Leave me alone” is all what I said.

‘Minty! Come on tell me! I’ve been with Gary for years now, you can tell me!’

“That’s the main reason I don't want to tell you” My voice was almost a whisper.

Normally she wouldn't hear me, but the look on her face told me that she did.

‘Why don't you trust me Minty?’ her voice changed. It wasn't like the screeching sharp voice I would always hear. It was a soft, accusing voice.

“It’s not only you Charlotte. I don't trust anyone. Now leave me alone” I said as I raised my head.

Poor Charlotte, her lips pressed into a straight line, and her eyes seek answers. I walk pass her, and our shoulders collide.

‘You slept with Gary when I wasn't home right?’

I froze.

“So he told you” I whispered.

‘I yanked the words out of him. He kept on saying that it’s your fault’

“So? What are you going to do now?”

‘There’s nothing I can do. He was drunk. And you were a b***h’

I walked to her and lifted her chin to face me.

“What are you going to do?” I repeat.

‘This is your fault! You lied to me!’ she spat at me.

“How are you willing to fix this?” I ask.

‘First thing I’m kicking you out of my house-’

I cut her off by saying “You don't have to, I already kicked my self out with my things”

I walk away from her, and she stays.

Before I disappear in the crowd, I tell her “And by the way, my name is Mentiri, not Minty”

 

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            After two hours of walking I begin to regret. I realize how stupid I am, since Charlotte and Gary took great of me. But I pushed them away. I lied to them, and now I am alone again.

Alone.

Again.

Two words I’ve tried to run away from. But I always seem to fail.

 

‘Mentiri…? Is that you…?’

 

I felt my eyes widen as I recognized that voice from behind me. I turn my face to make sure, but all I see is the crowd of people.

Were you really here?