What Real Hate Feels Like

Dunno how I feel about this one...just something weighing on my mind.

I hate seeing their hands on you
Imagining their fingers tangled in your hair
I hate knowing skin that is not mine
Has touched you the way mine has
I makes me furious
Not at you
Never at you
I makes me want to destroy something
I know nothing about
It makes me morose as well
Wanting to curl up and die
To crawl away from all life
And subside to misery
If I could I would fix it
Change it all
So that I was there from the beginning
So neither of us would hurt
You especially
The pain in your eyes
Just from seeing them
It makes gives my eyes
A murderous blood lust
And I want to destroy someone
I know nothing about
Am I jealous?
I do not know
I just mourn
For the love that was wasted
The heart that was abused
And every night before I sleep
Everyday before I rise
I get the feeling
Of wanting to destroy someone
That I wish never existed