I Did It For Love

Love can make you crazy.

Hey guys this story is OLD, like OLD, I wrote it in 7th grade, I didn't change it a lot, but I did get rid of a few lines, but nothing big, so don't judge please.

I did it for love

“I didn’t mean to kill her.” The cops were surrounding me and I had no way out.

BEEP BEEP BEEP BE- Slam

I dragged myself out of bed and went to my messy dresser. “Why does school have to be so early in the morning.” I thought, looking over at my clock, it was 6:30. I threw on my ACDC shirt and some baggy jeans, pulling up my hair, it didn’t feel right so I took it down and messed it up a bit. “Oliver! Are you ready for school yet!?” My mother called up while walking up the stairs. “Yeah, Mom, almost done.” I threw my bag over my shoulder and walked out my bedroom door. “Here, Oliver, open.” She had my medication in her hand. I have been diagnosed with anxiety, and I have schizophrenia. I took it and walked out the door to catch Emma before she left me. “Emma waittttt!” She stopped and turned around when I caught up to her, she smiled and grabbed my hand. “You made it! I thought I would have had to leave you.” Emma shrugged, walking in sync with me. “So you ready for your game tonight?” Emma asked, placing her head on my shoulder. “Yeah, I think so. Are you ready to cheer for me?” I asked back, she shrugged a bit. “Eh, I might skip cheer you never know… I’m just kidding, I love cheer.” Emma put one of her headphones on and gave the other to me.

Hey, Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful angel. Love your imperfections, every angle. Tomorrow comes and goes before you know.

“Put your hands where I can see them!” They were all around, guns in my face, I didn’t mean to, it all just happened too fast one minute she was yelling at me telling me to let go the next she was on the floor.

“Oliver. Are you listening?” I get out of my blank stare at my paper. “Um yeah, yeah sorry.” The teacher goes back to writing on the board, and I go back to drawing random flowers and hearts around the paper. I look at the clock on the wall above the board. “One minute.” I thought to myself.

Ring Ring Ring.

“We need all football players to the gym please, all football players to the gym.”

I got up threw my bag over my shoulder and walked out of the room reaching Elijah, my best friend I met at football practice in 5th grade. “Hey Eli! What's up man.” We did our handshake as Elijah replied. “Nothing much Mate, whats up with you?” I shrug. “Nothing much.” We walked to the gym, the mats were out and the cheerleaders were practising, I saw my lovely girlfriend! She constantly yelled at some of the younger girls for playing around instead of trying to do this one flip I have seen her do. I threw on my team jersey and went out behind Emma. I wrapped my arms around her waist as she was still yelling at those girls. “Baby you are so harsh on them, they're only in 9th grade...” I jokingly whinnied and kissed the top of her head. “Aren’t you meant to go out to the field when you're done getting your jersey and stuff on?” I shrug. “Oh well, who cares anyway?” Emma smiles, pushing me off a bit. “Go on, Oliver, you're going to get in trouble. We're about to go out too.” I laughed a bit and ran up to where Elijah was making it out to the field.

“Good game.” One of the other team members told me to walk off. I stood up it has been a while since we lost, and I forgot the feeling of it. Being the captain of the team is hard, makes every loss feel like it's on you. Emma grabbed my bag for me, I grabbed it from her, walking past on my way home. I lay on my bed scrolling mindlessly through TikTok when I got a text from Emma.

Emma- Hey love, you played a good game today.

You- Yeah thanks

Emma- I mean it, Oliver, you did amazing, even if you didn’t win.

I ignored her texts and scrolled through TikTok until I saw a video about how mental illness isn’t real and stuff. I was going to keep scrolling, but it just kind of dragged me in. “Oliver, wake up! You slept through your alarm.” I got up, yawning. I threw on a random shirt and jeans with my shoes. I was heading out the door until my mom stopped me. “Oliver, did you take your pills?” I didn’t, so I was going to head back in, but I thought of the TikTok I saw last night and decided not to say anything. “Yeah, mom.” I walked out the door shutting it behind me. I walked into the school and headed to my locker where Elijah was waiting. “Hey mate.” We did our handshake as I replied. “Hey Eli.” Me and him walked to our class without words.

A young woman sat in front of me. She wore a white coat with jeans, purple glasses, and brown hair. “Hey Oliver, I'm Docter Lewis.” She smiled. “Take a few breaths for me alright Oliver? Can you do that?” I nodded, listening to what she had said. “Now tell me, what happened? What did you do, Oliver?”

Ring Ring Ring

The day went by fast, I barely even realised it was ending. I was heading out of the school when I ran into Emma. “Oh, hey, babe!” She smiled. “Why are you always in the way? My gosh, I’m just trying to get home.” I push past her. “Why did I do that…?” I thought to myself. Later that day I walked to her house and knocked softly on the door. Ms. Fredrickson opened the door and smiled. “Ah Oliver! It’s nice to see you honey!” She let me in and told me Emma was in her room. I knocked on her door. “Come on in, Oliver.” I opened the door and sat on her bed next to her. “Look Em I’m sorry, I don’t know what came over me. Today's just been a lot, and I didn’t take my meds for my anxiety, well, my meds for anything, but I was feeling a lot and I didn’t mean to snap at you.” She hugged me, and I hugged her tighter, kissing her head. “Oliver, you need to take your medication and you know that.” I nod. “I know. I just forgot don’t worry about it.” I stayed the night at her house. The next morning I got up and dragged myself out of her bed. “Babe please stay… It's a Saturday so we might as well stay in bed.” I sigh, laying back down as she cuddles back into me. “You're so warm, I could just stay here forever,” Emma said, closing her eyes back up. “I’m just awesome like that.” I joked…. Maybe. I closed my eyes and started falling back asleep.

“I-I didn’t mean to!” I said, shaking slightly. “You didn’t mean what Oliver?” She tilted her head a bit to look at me and put a hand on my knee I knew she knew but I think she wanted to see if I knew what I did. “I didn’t mean to kill her. I don’t know what happened! They told me too…” She placed her other hand on my knees, looking at me directly in the eyes. “Who told you to…?” I didn’t say anything I placed my head in between my knees. “Oliver, look at me. Who told you to kill Emma?” Her voice was gentle and caring, I couldn’t do it anymore, I can’t do this anymore.

When I came home, my mom stood at the door, waiting. “Oliver Izayah Low. Where have you been!?” I didn’t mean to stay out this late; it was already 2:00 p.m. “I was at Emma’s. I made her mad yesterday and I spent the night with her and we slept like half the day.” She sighed shaking her head. “Just go on, your cousins will be here soon along with your uncle and auntie.” She walked back into the kitchen, I walked up to my room to shower and change.

Ding Dong

It was about 7 something. Now I had been scrolling through TikTok for hours because I had been bored. Anyway, I heard my mom talking to my uncle, auntie and cousins. I didn’t feel like peopling right now, but my mom called me from the bottom of the stairs, so I had to people. “There he is!” My auntie said she went up and hugged me, but I was very uncomfortable. “Um, hi.” I softly said, she kissed me on the cheek, letting my uncle hug me next. “Hey, bubby, how you been?” My uncle said in his usual deep raspy voice. “I have been alright.” My cousins were playing with their toy cars. My cousins were Stella and Japster; they were twins, and they are 5 years old. “Come on, Oliver, loosen up.” My mom nudged my arm. “Yeah, okay,” I say more instantly than I meant to. “Um, alright then, let's go eat, yeah?” My mom said, heading into the kitchen, a little worried. The rest of us, even my cousins, sat down at the table when they saw macaroni and cheese with some fancy-looking chicken. They all started eating, I felt sick, like the kind when all eyes are on you. My leg was bouncing up and down and my hands were shaky I couldn’t focus on anything. My mom slid her hand over to my shaking hand that was on the table. Even though she was trying to make me feel better it just made me feel worse, now I know someone's eyes are on me. I looked down at my feet trying to block everyone's eyes out of my mind. I feel like I’m dying like this feeling will never pass, I still feel all the glazes on me. I can hear the sound of them talking and laughing but what if they are laughing at me. My chest tightened, and I couldn’t breathe. I move my hand from the table to my chest. “Oliver, you need Emma or Elijah?” My mom whispered over to me, Emma or Elijah always help me in times like this, I don’t know what it is but them just being there is comforting. They never even had to say anything just sitting there with me made me feel better. “Emma.” I quickly whispered back, she nodded and pulled out her phone standing up. I stood up pretending to go to the bathroom, but for real, I was just in my room waiting on my bed.

Not too long after Emma walked into my room sitting beside me but still far away. “Hey, Oliver.” She smiled lightly. “I see them again.” I point to the wall where I always see this tall man in a black suit standing there, he's tall with a twisted face, no eyes and he has a big smile that never seems to leave. “You're just seeing things, Oliver, it’s okay just breathe.” I was doing my breathing and whatever until I heard it speaking to me, which is something it rarely does. “She knows nothing. She can’t be trusted, she's only here because of you. But she doesn't have to be, tell her to leave.” I try to get his voice out of my head, but he’s not leaving. “Do what you're told and I’ll set you free, you can’t leave until I speak, in the night I creep and crawl. Dancing until my final brawl. Do what you’re told and I’ll set you free.” I turn to Emma. “Emma, can you leave, please.” She looks shocked. “What? No, Oliver, what are you talking about?” The monster comes beside me and whispers in my ear. “Do what you’re told and I’ll set you free.” I push her off the bed. “Out! Emma now!” She stood up. “No, Oliver, I’m not leaving you like this! You haven’t been taking your medications, have you!?” I froze and shook my head a bit. “I can live without them!” Emma walked to the door. “I’m breaking up with you until you get your life together.” The voice came back but it was really loud this time. “Don’t let her leave or you’ll never be free. St@b her until she bleeds.” I ran and closed the door. “Wait Emma, please don’t leave!” She tried to push past me but I blocked her. “Oliver let me pass.” I shook my head. “St@b her until she sleeps.” I dragged her with me to my closet and grabbed a knife from my closet that I keep just in case. “Do what you’re told and I’ll set you free.”

I had tears going down my face. My shirt was stained red, my hands were even redder, she laid there lifeless on the floor. I left my phone downstairs. I ran down the stairs and out to the kitchen. My mom screamed when she saw me. “Oliver! What did you do!?” My cousins were to young to understand, they just sat there playing with cars while my mom, uncle, and auntie all stared at me in fear. “Mama… I’m so sorry! Please, mama, please I’m sorry! I didn’t mean to!!” I grabbed my phone, I started crying even more walking up the stairs and shutting my door. I dilled in 911. “This is 911, what's your-” I cut them off. “I just killed my girlfriend…I-I don’t think she’s breathing…” There was a long pause. “Okay, sir help is on the way.” I hung up that's all I needed to know. “Oliver! Stop, let me go, please! Oliver! Please please, please!?” Her voice still rings in my head. “Oliver, please, I love you! Stop! Don’t do this!” I can’t stand it. “Ol-Oliv-er I l--ove you…” That’s the last thing she said. My door slammed open tons of people walked in to me sitting by Emma just staring at her lifeless body. “Put your hands where I can see them!” They were all around, guns in my face, I didn’t mean to, it all just happened too fast one minute she was yelling at me telling me to let go, the next she was on the floor. My tears were dried up and sticking to my face, I was a mess.

“The voices… He told me to!” She looked up at one of the cops standing there. “What did he say?” She looked back. “Do what you’re told and I’ll set you free… St@b her until she bleeds.” My voice breaks and I start fidgeting with my hands. “Did he say anything other than that?” I shook my head. “Not anything that would help..” She looked into my eyes. “Everything he said will help.” I try to think what other things he said to me. “Do what you're told and I’ll set you free, you can’t leave until I speak, in the night I creep and crawl. Dancing until my final brawl. Do what you’re told and I’ll set you free. He sang that before everything happened.” She nodded a bit, writing it down. “You wait right here.” She stood up walking into the house with the cop. “I didn’t mean to kill her.” The cops were surrounding me and I had no way out. I was sitting on the sidewalk like the cop told me to wait for the doctor to come over.

Back to where we were.

When Doctor Lewis came back she didn’t sit down this time. “Oliver, we are going to go back into the house, I need you to help me with something.” I stood up walking alongside her. I saw my mother in my room crying and shaking her head a bit, Emma had been covered up with a black bag. “My baby… Oliver, honey I love you okay? You know that right?” I nodded and she walked to me and then looked at the cop who just nodded at her, she grabbed me and held me close. “Oh, Oliver. Why. Why didn’t you tell me.” She let me go, giving me some space. I had nothing to say, I wish it didn’t end like this. I wish it was me. I hear something behind me. “Hey, Oliver.” It was him again. I jumped a bit, I started shaking and my breath stopped. “Oliver? What’s wrong?” Doctor Lewis asked, walking up, I looked down, hiding the tears going down my face. I couldn’t talk or move. I was frozen in place. His hand slid down my back, scratching his way back up. Doctor Lewis was saying something, but all I could hear was ringing. She lifted my head so she could see my face better and shone a flashlight in my eyes while still talking. My body went numb and I couldn't feel anything. Doctor Lewis led me to my bean bag chair and sat me down taking something another doctor gave her. She put a mask on my face trying to still talk to me. Soon the ringing went down some, “Oliver, Oliver, can you hear me?” It was faint but I could. I nodded my head the best I could. “Good, right now I need you to chill out. Take deep breaths. It can’t hurt you. You understand? It’s not real.” I see him standing there behind Doctor Lewis. He smiled that wicked smile, waving at me. His little tune ran through my head. I tried to block him out, but he was just there in the back of my mind, sitting there waiting for me. my head. “Oliver~, You killed her, Oliver, good job she’s gone now, all because of YOU” I cover my ears a bit, blocking out him. “She’s gone now. And she will never love you. And thats what you wanted, right?” I shake“No, no, no. I didn’t want to..!” Then I felt a sudden pain in my chest, and I grabbed at it, pulling, trying to breathe. I felt someone pulling me up and onto a different chair. I kept falling asleep and waking back up. I saw a light shining in my eyes again, then I heard tons of yelling, and before I knew it I woke up completely. “Wha-...?” My stomach was hurting so bad it made me start crying I heard people yelling and talking. “What do we got?!” A doctor asked. “Oliver Low, 17-year-old boy st@bbed himself in the ches-” I cut them off. “I did what?” They put a mask on my face, it made me really tired. “Just sleep, Oliver, you’ll be okay.”