Rant

Real life s**t

I have everything....so why does it still feel like something's missing. I don't want to be broken but I am. Was I moving to fast? Is this how I want this to be? I say that I'm happy but....am I? What am I doing? So much has happened in so little time. I lost so many, but I gained so much. Why did I have to lose anything? Why does it still hurt? The scars won't fade, the pain won't stop. My dreams bring me back, and I just want to scream. I want to kill, I want to kiss, I want to forgive. I wish I wasn't so confused. I wish everything could be black and white. I wish I could forget you. But I don't. Because I can't. Can't forget your laugh, your face. It haunts me, it caresses me. It kills me, it saddens me. I cry when I think about it, you. I cry and I scream and wish I was dead until everything becomes numb. Until my tears dry on my cheeks, until the bottle repairs itself. Then your face is gone again, and he is there. Smiling, kissing, laughing, loving. I regret, I rejoice, I remember. I will never forget. I will never forget you no matter how much I want to sometimes. Because when everything is OK and I'm happy and you're gone, something happens and BAM! There you are. Then the glass is shattered. And I wonder, and I think. And then I dream all over again. But it has to be this way, right? Isn't that what you said? Find someone better??? MOVE ON??!!! ....and then nothing....no pain....no tears.....no memories of your laugh....of your voice.....only blood....only broken skin.....only broken pieces of the glass.

Author's Note

I know it's bad and I don't care. Just some rant and stuff I needed to get out

Reviews

[Sumaid Qaiser]

I think that your character has a problem in moving on.................may be it's not easy to just let go the previous romantic memories and the character finds it quite hard to let go. "I want to kill, I want to kiss, I want to forgive." your this line says that the character has a split personality disorder. I really lked it

[KeeD]

There's so much emotion all bottled up and spilled out on this rant, I honestly like the the bittersweet tale of something which is over but forever lingers on, no matter how one sided the thought might be, we're alive and so we feel. That feeling will stay, till the next feeling washes it away. 100/100

[Dr.Who.LOVER]

You're exactly right. What i wrote about is over and done with but only because a new pain has developed and taken its place. Thanks so much for the review

[Mizuki Tsukiakari]

I understand now why you titled this piece 'Rant'. It's very raw and filled with a lot of emotion, but it's not expressed in an organized way, although I know that wasn't your intent, because this is just a rant of your feelings. I think you should definitely organize your words a bit better and turn it into a really amazing piece. Great start, and I hope you feel better :)

[Dr.Who.LOVER]

Aww thanks! Yes i'm feeling better. I am now considering editing this again

[Mizuki Tsukiakari]

Your welcome, and I'm glad your feeling better :)
I'm looking forward to your next version of the writing.

[Luke Rawlings]

I think this would make a really good poem if you were to use it as a first draft. I love the juxtaposition in there. You are definitely good at capturing emotion in your writing. Well done! :D

[Dr.Who.LOVER]

Thanks! Ya this was kinda just a random rant i wasn't trying to make it a poem but maybe i will now! :D thanks for the review

[Luke Rawlings]

You are most welcome, send me the read request if you do write it as a poem :)

[Dr.Who.LOVER]

I most definetly will!