Sometimes

Sometimes i want to talk
My voice drowns in the midst of others
Sometimes i want to smile
My face wears a long frown
Sometimes i want to trust
Trust betrays me
Sometimes i court kindness
Kindness is harsh to me
Sometimes in searching for a friend
I become my own enemy
Sometimes in trying to find
I get lost seeking
Sometimes in trying to move forward
I go backwards
Sometimes i want to live
Daily life kills me