"Insomnia"

How it feels to be an insomniac

Insomnia

By: St. Fugaz

I stare at my clock, waiting for time to stop

But it leaves me behind, it leaves me out in the blackness of the night
Out of all light, away from all human sight

It hurts because my eyes won't shut

They are stapled open wide

I lay there on my side, feeling like I won't survive

And from my thoughts I have tried to hide

But to my rules they don’t abide

They hurt my head, they hurt my mind

It keeps me awake

My hands begin to quake

I grab my head and scream, as the tears begin to stream

I just want to sleep, I want to rest, I just want to dream

I wipe my eyes in anger

I talk to myself but I feel like a stranger

I can’t learn myself, and I feel like a different person

Like there are two people in me battling for control over my reality.

I clench my head in pain, I don’t want it to stay

I plead for this to go away

All I think of is sleep, I can’t close my eyes and make them keep

I look at widow and see the hellish light, What do you know another sleepless night

Author's Note

When you are up all night every night and just can't sleep