The weight of Addiction

A Poem by Sumo

I see the strong woman I love, cave under the pressure of her addiction
I know she could accomplish great things without this restriction

I see it the tight grip it has on her soul
She uses liquor to try and fill an empty hole

I watch the change in her demeanor
And pray Jesus will clean her

I hear the reasons, the excuses and the attempt for justification
All while knowing she needs to rely on her salvation

I see her letting herself down, myself down and her daughter down
With each shot, the pain inside she attempts to drown

I feel her pain, when she's drunk and I'm sober
This weight, pushing down just as a boulder

She feels her pain, when she's sober
I pray she doesn't fall any lower

I'm asked to be there and be the support she needs to help her overcome this demon
I don't care what it takes, but she needs a powerful enough reason

How am I supposed to be a supporter when I'm so angry and hurt
Im dying for thirst in my own emotional desert

Her clear mind knows me and sees right through me
She's aware of her affliction and wishes to be set free

Her intoxicated mind, creates situations and delusions from nothing
It makes her feel unpure and disgusting

As she struggles to regain her composure
I'll continue to love her, regardless of the exposure

She's my gift and I hers in this moment forever
We will conquer this battle, winning this endeavor

On my knees I pray for the answer to be found
So she will no longer be the Devils playground