Empty Memories

A Poem by Sumo

Poem about my biological father...

You could have held me tight as an infant
Yet you chose to be distant

You could have seen my first steps and picked me up when I fell
Yet you chose to ignore responsibility and bail

You could have heard the first time I called you dad
Instead you pretended your presence would be bad

You could have smiled as I rode off for the first time on my bicycle
And reminisced how it wasn't long ago it was a tricycle

You could have given me advice about my first crush
Telling me to slow down, there is no rush

You could have taught me how to be a man
Instead you didn't even try and just ran

I could have made you proud as I graduated high school
Instead you left me all alone, wishing you were there...a fool

You could have given your blessing as I married my own
Instead you left me all alone

To this day I have to call you first
I don't know which hurts worse

Finding you and not having that "moment" I prayed for so long
Asking myself if even finding you was wrong

Maybe I should have kept wondering why
Maybe then I wouldn't have cried

I'm not the type to forgive and forget
I hold a grudge and am still upset

One day it's you I still wish to see
To show you the man you missed out on, me....