Escape

I live my life trapped in a cycle
Ruled by yesterday
In a constant state of denial
I'm just running away
I always feel like I'm on trial
Why would I wanna stay?
when I got and endless supply of
Ways to numb out the pain

You tell me that I'm hurting
Everyone that I love
constantly deserting them
Trying to stay above
The waters that I swim in
Get blacker everyday
But I got an endless supply of
Ways of numbing out the pain

Shove it down
take away the pain
You say I'm running
I call it an escape

From all this bullshit I don't wanna deal with anymore
I don't Care if I'm in heaven or lying passed out on the floor
Someone show me the way out
Just unlock the door
And I can promise you that you won't see me no more....

One foot in the fire with the other one close behind
Spirit is bent and broken
just like my mind
See the worst parts of me coming out and I just don't know what to do
I try to drown them in a bottle then they just lash out at you

Shove it down
Take away the pain
You say I'm running
I call It an escape

From all this bullshit I don't wanna deal with anymore
I don't Care if I'm in heaven or lying passed out on the floor
Someone show me the way out
Just unlock the door
And I can promise you that you won't see me no more....

I'm sick of running away
I know I don't have to live this way
It's time for me To find my escape

From all this bullshit I don't wanna deal with anymore
I'm sick of living life in hell lying on the floor
I always knew the way out but I wouldn't open the door
And I can promise you that you won't see me here no more....