When I hit the bottom

A poem about how it feels when depression hits out of the blue

I was just walking along
I didn't see the cliff
I didn't know I was falling
But I felt it when I hit the bottom

I thought my day was fine
Nothing was wrong or even bad
I didn't feel my smile slipping
But I felt it when I hit the bottom

I started doubting myself
I threw away my thoughts
My chest grew heavy and downhearted
I felt it when I hit the bottom

I pushed away my friend
I began to cry
I wallowed for a while
I felt it when I hit the bottom

I looked up and saw gray skies
but the pain had started to ebb
It started to go away
I was rising off the bottom

Now I am smiling
Keeping an eye on the cliff
I know I'll fall again
And I'll hurt when I hit the bottom

I'm not scared to fall
I just don't want to
bring anyone with me
When I hit the bottom

So I'll watch out
for as long as I can
but I can't help but slip
and fall to the bottom

Please be patient with me
I'll come back up
I just need time to heal
Because it hurts when you hit the bottom

Reviews

[Nessly]

I love the idea you're conveying in your poem. I definitely know what it's like to hit rock bottom, while trying your best to put on a smile and not bring anyone down with you. Your poem perfectly depicts what it's like to go through life and feel yourself falling, only to rise and fall once more.

[Alexie]

Thank you. I struggle with depression and writing poems is an easy outlet for me. I only recently found this site and decided to join up and share my writings

[Nessly]

I'm so happy you decided to join writerscafe.org. I've only recently joined myself in hopes of sharing my work and finding out if others relate to what I have to say. I hope my work helps someone, somewhere. I particularly related to this poem because I also struggle with depression.

[Inject Positivity]

My heart goes out to you, I know how it feels, I have gone through the same phase my frnd... You have quite perfectly pictured what it feels to be under deep depression, your touching and positive way of ending the poem makes it more special... God bless you frnd, you will get through this...

Sincerely
Dhiman