I Can't Live and I Can't Die

I've had the gun pointing at my head all day

And someone just pulled the trigger.

Everything is exploding around me,

The gun reloading and shooting over and over.

The bullets rain down on me

And I can't have help.

I can't stop it.

I can't live and I can't die.

I'm laying here too paralyzed to cry.

I know deep inside that I'm doomed to live this life.

It won't stop.

My wounds are too deep and not deep enough.

I can't live and I can't die.

I can't commit my suicide.

It's too much pain,

I can't bear it.

It's tearing me apart.

I can't get a grip

On the gun

Pointed at my head.

It won't shoot,

It won't let it stop.

It won't end.

God d****t please just let it end....