I Feel It

I can feel myself getting worse....

I guess that might be the hardest part.

It feels like drowning but you know you can't swim,

Or being trapped in a burning building.

There is nothing I can do about it.

I've asked for help but they just brush me away.

My cuts have turned to cigarette burns

And blackening lungs.

I'm so tired,

Too tired to sleep.

All I can do is stay up late and let it happen.

I have to let myself lose it for a little while.

If I don't, I may lose it for good.

Maybe that's the better way.

I just don't want anyone to notice

And I have the feeling makeup can't hide it all.