Somedays I need
Five different cosmetics
Applied meticulously
In the same order
In the same fashion
To feel like
I have eyes-
Two fawn colored orbs
Floating above
A black horizon
Is what passes
For the natural look.
Somedays I need
To wear my jeans
Pulled up
Past my hips,
Past my belly button
In order to feel
Like I have a figure.
It only figures
that what I will have
Is pinched doughy midrift
Above wide hips-
Those precursers to
A wide behind.
Somedays I shave,
And pick, and pluck
And tweeze for hours-
So my skin
Is hairless enough
To feel like a woman-
I'm bumpy, red,
Raw and ashamed
Because I know
The fuzz will return
As my own body
Betrays the "acceptable"
Look for my gender.
Somedays I fidget
With the straps
Of my bra-
An item designed
To make me
Look better in shirts.
Cotton, spandex, and polyblend
Are all that stands
Between my b***s
And my knees,
Because physiology
And gravity
Care nothing for fashion.
Somedays I wonder
About trees falling
In the forest
With no one around.
Does a point exist
With no one to
To make, or support it?
Who is there
To impress when
What once was
So damn important
Doesn't matter anymore?
Somedays I wonder
Whom my days
Are really for?
And if being
Expelled from the herd
Would really be
So bad.