AFTER BENNY WENT 1964.

A GIRL'S THOUGHTS AFTER HER BOYFRIEND HAS GONE HOME IN 1964

Benny's gone
back home

Milka is in her room

her mother
is downstairs
getting lunch

she wishes
he had stayed
wishes her mother
hadn't come back
from town
when she did

me and Benny
could have made out
if she'd stayed
in town
in the shops
but no
she had to come
back early

Benny went
and pretended
we'd just got back
ourselves

he has that way
with him
and my mother
thinks the sun
shines out
of his arse

and if I wasn't here
I’m sure as hell
she'd have him herself
the middle-aged b***h

Milka sighs
lies on the bed
stares at the ceiling

tries to spot
where the black spider
went to
it was there
that time
Benny was
having sex
with her
the other week
and she stared at it
as the thrill of Benny
in her made it seem
unimportant

she wishes
he was there now
despite her mother
being downstairs

she wishes he
was there now
between her thighs
bringing bright light
to her young
gazing eyes.