First Heart Break

We all have those first loves and the sad truth is written before love and thats first. There will be many more and yet we all are going to find the one we are ment to be with in the end.

I've never noticed before how lonely i am now that you are gone. I used to get texts all the time but now i can leave my phone for a day at home and hear from no one. I miss talking to you, no i take that back, I miss you. You did so many things to hurt me and make me distrust you but here i am missing the person that gave me so many memories yet so much pain. But you don't miss me because before we where even broken up i had already been replaced by another. You don't even think of me anymore i bet. But here i am wishing everyday that you would tell me that you love me again and that you would always be there for me when i needed you.

But here i am thinking of you and seeing you in my dreams that i've given up sleeping all together. I'm so tired not just physically but mentally, I see you in my head texting her and talking to her and smiling and all i can think about is when you and me where together. We did everything. Everyone saw us together because we are so similar but never in a million years had i seen you being the one to hurt me. I hope she makes you happy, That's all i ever cared about. Its taking me time to fully heal but finally i can no longer cry over you because now i believe that crying is just a way of showing you that you have hurt me and i am not going to let you see that. Deep down i hope that you find happiness with some that is as important to you as you once where to me.

I will always have a place in my heart for you and I will always remember all the things we did together. Even if you don't. So I hope one day we can be friends again you where so much fun to talk to and i miss that. Thank you for being my first Love I wouldn't have traded our 6 months together for the world.

Author's Note

Please grammar isn't my strongest attribute so please ignore it, I just felt it was time to share this.

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this one is my favorite because that how it was for me....it was the first guy i ever dated....we were great together and we would text nonstop until we passed out at night. it was great but then he decided to go for someone else and he left me. i guess the only difference between us is that i left my phone alone for like a week or two before i would hear from someone. but luckly that guy made me want to write more which forced me on this site and helped me meet michael..... :)